JOMEINAH

Its like playing poker.

You win, you win. You loose, you loose.

Unless if your are like in the movies, and playing with all the tricks (That is call cheating)

How many of us knows how to gamble with life? If you are handsome, you are poor. If you are handsome and rich, you will die early. If you are handsome, rich, and live long, then you will surely loose some part of important elements in life. (Perhaps, happiness or love, etc . . .)

If the poker card comes to you, then its yours, if it doesn’t, then its not. If you make the wrong move, then there will be no turning back, no U-Turn. No one will always win, no one will always loose. One shall declare the winner, the other the looser, but this doesn’t mean that it will be forever.

The gambler takes the risks, the gambler takes the challenges. If you wanna fool with the game, you have got to face the consequences. May it be good or bad.

But sometimes, there are gamblers who stop taking chances. This my friend, takes lots of courage as well. It is not an easy move to back out while your on the poker table. One might look at you as a coward, the other might look at you as a looser. Well, I look at this person as a winner. It takes a brave heart, and a smart brain to tell himself that enough is enough. Move forward and never look back. The decision had been made. The decision, is not only for the sake of himself, but for the sake of his team, his associates, his fans, and for the future.

If you are to gamble with your life, don’t let the joker fool you. Don’t let the Kings, and Queens, Spades and Hearts to eat your precious life away. There will always be en entrance and an exit. Step in , and step out, while you still can, MY FRIEND

Few years back, somewhere around this month, a very important person left us peacefully, and now resting in a much more pleasant place.

This year, someone really very important to me left me and his family and friends behind peacefully, and he is now resting in also a very pleasant place.

Everything came in a shock in just a few months time. We saw him growing old in such a short time, we saw him grew so thin, but he never gave up. He had always been a fighter. He told me once that I don’t have to worry, coz once he got better, he will buy me one very big meal to eat, but we will just have to eat only the food that he is allow to eat. hahahaha… Which, i would prefer to eat Lobsters, Crabs, Prawns, and bla bla bla… He told us all that he had been through strong wind, strong storm, strong wave, and he had never given up hope, and how can he give up so easily, when he was such a strong soldier.

Early in the morning of 17/09/08, I was out with friends to “Sahur” in BTC, and when I reach home, I find it weird to see my uncle’s room wide open, but it didn’t hit me to sms or to call anyone from the family. I was holding myself back all the time, and I didn’t want to think about and went straight to bed. In the morning at 0730, my uncle informed me that he was no longer with us. I didn’t show any expression, but instead I was happy. I was happy, and am still happy that he is in heaven. No longer suffering. He should be very happy and proud of us now. Although there are many things which is not settle yet, but I believe that with the strong family ties, he can rest in peace and tease us from above. hehehe….

I did cry a few times, the moment I got to know what attacked him, and the moment that I started to think of the time we had together, my heart ached so bad, my eyes tears so heavily. But, crying is just part of life, and there is no definition towards these feelings, it was just an expression of love.

This morning of 20/9/08. All the Ong’s family, close relatives, friends, workers, and business partners came to pay their last respect. I gave a short speech, In the family, I had always been the clown. I am still the clown. I wanted everyone to smile, I wanted everyone to share the good memories I had with him. I didn’t elaborate much, but I know that he would never want anyone to worry about him, and he would never want anyone to feel sad for him. He was the Chinese Santa Clause, and wants everyone to be happy. And my “SAKU”, that was for you.

You are resting in peace now. I will visit you from time to time. I love you. I will always keep you in my heart. Bless us all. Please take care of all us. Shin upon us all. Show us the bright light of love within the family, to your wife, to your son, to you sisters and brothers, to your family, friends, and the people around. We all love you.

Ong Ken Min @ Joe (We remember)

Officially confirmed as one of the PH’s staff, I am proud to say that, I got through all the tough time here and there. Although, with lots of consequences, and problems, and at times, with lots of unsuspected good returns, I still don’t feel quite satisfy with the progress of my life.

I definitely had left out a lot of good times that I can easily decide to do, but however, sacrifices needs to be done. Money is so tight, responsibilities needs to be carry, other hearts needs to be taken care off, and selfishness can be carried away as well.

So difficult to explain the situation that I am in now. I can just say that I am grateful, but still searching and wanting for more. I will not let the state I am in now to be with me forever, definitely not. I will have to live in a much better life, and I have to be a much better person from today.

Hello family and friends,
Recently, I had lots of weird dreams. I can remember them pretty well as well. Most of the years, I rarely even have any dream, when I do, I won’t be able to remember them.

It is now my 3rd month working in PH. Learning fast, but still need a lot of assistance from my senior colleagues when it comes to new task. Crashed my mom’s car to the wall twice, fixed it, regretted it, and not that I want to, traumatized a bit, but, I will still have to drive it till I get my baby Proton back in hand from my mom. Done case.
Working wise, well, lost of paper work, lots of following up, lots of calls to receive and to return, lots of clients to meet, lots of target to achieve, but these are just the normal stuff that I will have to get use to. Besides just the unpleasant look I get, everything seems to work fine.

As much as I want to place my full concentration on work, I missed the time where I get to hang out till late at night with my friends, although just sipping through one cup of hot coffee. Sadly, in this new place, and new priorities, things are going slow in the personal world.

Soon, more friends will graduate, and some of them shall return to KK, but I would advise them to grab the opportunities that they get in KL or West Malaysia or in other better country, But of course, if you are in my position, or somewhere similar to my position, I won’t blame you for coming back to KK or Sabah. Give yourself some time and some space and you might get yourself somewhere else better in the future when you are prepare.

Nothing much that I would like to talk about. Welcome back and welcome to the working life to all the fresh graduates. Remember not to give up so easily, life is short, enjoy it to the fullest and remember what are the priorities for yourself first, then to others. And remember, the world is not only one straight road, you have many other choices out there as well. Be wise and be truthful to yourself.

Hello, I had been missing from writing my blog.

I would like to say Hi and How are all of you out there?

Let me remind you that I had lost my phone few weeks ago, I had lost all my contact numbers, but I had obtained my 012 number, so please send me your contact number through friendster, or if you still have my number, send it straight to me. Thanks.

Anyway, I haven’t been doing anything special lately. I should say, I have no fun in life. I am so young, but I am not making full use of it. Maybe one day, when I grow older, I will regret for the things that I shouldn’t do, and I choose not to do. I do believe that life is suppose to be taking risk, to challenge yourself, and fall face smack down, and to rise up again. Life is so ugly, that I can hardly tell what is beautiful. However, for as long as I can remember, I am never the most unfortunate one, in a matter of fact, I consider myself, VERY FORTUNATE.

<My recent update> I just started working. Working on something totally unrelated to what I had studied in campus. Like I say, for the majority of the people I have known, including myself, we graduate, wearing that silly square head, holding our scroll, just for the sake of a piece of PAPER. Ask me about JAVA, I will be lost in the woods.

Like I say, I just started working, will be entering my second month soon, and would like to be confirm as soon as possible. And my aim is to be a succesfull career lady, well respected and not to be afraid of, strong, and to believe, before anything elses comes first. And all that, comes with everything else that brings happiness, wealth, health. . . the things that makes me smile, even in my dreams.

To be that person, I will have to overcome who I am now. I had lost myself before, I never understand myself, I don’t know me, I hated everything I was back then. I had forgotten the meaning of self confidence, faith, trust, believe, and courage. And now, I want to gain back all of that, to polish it even more, and to be much much more better then that.

Today, is just a starting point. Today, in my new work, with my new colleagues, with a new environment. Today, I might not understand my work, and I feel sick to my stomack when I make mistakes, I kept thinking about how silly I can be when people knows my mistakes. Today, I might make mistakes by giving the wrong information to our clients. Today, I might keep quiet although I know I am right. But, today is today. Tomorrow, I will be stronger, wiser, smarter, better then all of you then you can ever imagine.

Today, tomorrow, future, the pass, oh well . . . Thanks for reading if you did. I will have to end it her now. Take care now.

Sincerely yours

JoJo

Hello all,

I just want to inform all of you that I had lost my handphone. Could you please provide me your handphone number? Please, so that we can keep on contacting one another. I will try to obtain my old number and will keep all of you inform. Thank you.

JoJo

To start of with, HAPPY NEW YEAR, & HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR to everyone I know, and I don’t know. I am finally back in KK again. Making some phone calls here and there, sending some emails here and there, and had been driving to certain unfamiliar places here and there too. Well, just having this big hope that, I might be lucky and kick start somewhere soon. I have a friend, where there were times, he became very lost. He doesn’t know what to do? Where to be? Who to talk to? And doesn’t even know what he wants for himself? He does things which other people wanted him to do. To tell you a little bit more about him, he is a person who likes to fight for his rights, he is a person who always have something to talk about, he is a great leader, and a good team player, he is always very funny, talkative, bull headed, straighforward, he likes to give way, like opening doors for others, he is a gentleman, but sometimes still can be quite rude. He doesn’t believe to always have to be the majority, because he believe, that if he is comfortable and happy, but still improving his lifestyle each day, there is nothing wrong, to be a minority. There was one time, when his mother gave him a piece of meat to his plate, and his big brother demanded that he must return one piece of meat back to his mother. Not even the mother herself demanded it, and nor he ever say not to give her back a piece of meat, he was just thinking maybe later. But, the big brother insisted. In a way, he felt like he is no longer himself. In order to make those people around him happy, is to forget who he is. He told me, that his family is very kind. And I agree, interms of financial support, and some other moral support. They want him, to be compatible and even better then others. Whenever he speaks his mind out, his needs, and his wishes, his family always, and always have something better to lead him. He feels like what he need for himself will never be able to make them happy, by the end of the day, he choose to keep quiet. When they say there are so much understanding in the family, it is actually the things that they wanted for him, instead of what he needed for himself. I feel that he is hurt, feeling betrayed, feeling lonely. He wants to be happy, but he will always think if that is enough, and is it up to his family’s expectation. He wants to feel free, but will that ever make them understands him? When he doesn’t show his concern, and still clowning around, making jokes, that doesn’t mean he never care, it is just that, he wants to light up the dark a little bit. I will stay by his side and hope that I will be strong enough to support him all the way. I am not sure if I am that courageous to stand up for him. But, I really wish I can. Because, that is what I need.

My personal opinion.
Recently, the Law of Attraction is attracting a lot of people all around the world to start using this tool, and to start believing in it. I myself, is one them. I believe in this Secret, which is the Law of Attraction.
Have you ever have the feeling of meeting someone just right after that person came across your mind?
Or have you ever feel like every time when you feel like something bad is going to happen to you even when it is a minor bad thing, it will happen to you because you had it in your mind all the time?
I am always experiencing all of these, and although after reading the Secret, I wasn’t so  sure if I should believe it or not. But, after coming to realize all the attractions which I had made for myself, I am beginning to believe in it.
For example, I am always telling myself that I don’t have to waste my time, to waste my energy, or to waste my money to watch certain movies, because somehow I know that one day this movie will come showing up to me by itself.
Of course, there are several unwanted events which I never invite it to come, but it is because I had ever think of it, I believe, it came to me.
For instance, by thinking that I might get fire from the previous company that I work in, it really did happen to me.
And I do believe, the Law of Attraction, will be powerful when it is attracted by the bad energy, which will be anger, sadness, jealousy, and so on.
However, the Law of Attraction will become real events when good energy i is shown, but, in a longer period of time. Good energy means happiness, gratitude, feeling bless, and so on.
We cannot expect to receive something good by using the Law of Attraction by the next day, by next week or by next month. Sometimes, it takes more faith, hope, and trust in the Law of Attraction to make it happen. Sometimes, it take years to happen.
If you are given the chance to read The Secret, or to watch the video of The Secret, you will find them explaining how actually the universe responding to your request. When we think of something, it creates energy, and we are all form by many atoms to become one. All these atom have its own energy, and these energy works like the frequency sent out from the radio to the station, to deliver what the radio had requested.
Just one thing, when you are thinking in a good way, it doesn’t come immediately, but the moment, you start thinking bad, the universe will follow your command immediately. And most of the time, people tend to give up hope in what they believe, when they face consequences, or challenges in life.

The most important thing is, are you allowing yourself to think in a positive way? Sometimes it is difficult to always stay positive, all of us have emotions, and sometimes emotions take us into the unwanted world.

We went to Penang by flight on the 14th November, 2007. We never planned much, but luckily, the Penang International Airport is in the island. So, we get to see and feel more of the real Penang lifestyle. We stayed in a cheap guest house. It was for RM30 per night. Equiped with a bathroom and a fan, but a bit stinky. Everybody told us to watch out our bags, so we were very cautious.
I called up my old friend Jason, and we rented a car, and he brought us around Penang. Went to the light house, and especially love Batu Feringhi. We even crossed the Penang Bridge and returned to Georgetown by ferry.

Later on, we traveled to HatYai in Thailand. We took a van, and the driver had to drive through the Penang Bridge 3 times just to get us coz he had forgotten about our existence. Damn… And so, I think it took us almost 5 - 6 hours to reach HatYai. Plus Minus the unfortunate events of the driver for being caught of over alcohol and beer in the van and many more. Luckily we weren’t the suspects. We stayed in King Hotel, and that was how mom met her friend who had been working there for years already and he helped us organized a short trip there. During our stay in HatYai, we were able to get ourselves to Songkla as well. We took Tuk Tuk,
it is like our very own beca in Penang. We went to its beach, and went to 2 of the temples there. Cool..Oh yah, it caused us RM40 per night there. And we get to eat Bird’s Nest like whenever we want there. Yummy… And people, becareful, do not take Tuk Tuk after 4pm there, coz they changed to become bad man, and they will torture you if you are unlucky.

After spending 3 days and 2 nights in Thailand, we head back down to Langkawi by ferry from Thailand.
The ferry was for  3 hours or so. But to get to the ferry, we need to take a van for about 2 hours. Reached Langkawi, cikgu Lim helped us booked AB Motel, which was for RM60 per night. It was nice, with the beaches at the other side of the road. And the room was equiped by TV, fridge, air-cond, a fan, and a bathroom. Real nice. My teacher, who only allow himself to drive 60km/h, brought us to all the exciting places, and he made us feel so excited about the cable car, which doesn’t excite me that much, except knowing that
Sharukh Khan ran here and there for the movie DON there before. We spent most of our time in the car. But, I get to meet my very old friend Thrence. He never change much, still the old him. We went to the Underwater World, which was dissapointing, coz according to Thrence, someone poisoned the water to kill the living there. So cruel. By the way, after spending 4 days and 3 nights in Langkawi, we took a ferry to Kuala Perlis, and took a bus to KL. It takes us about 45 minutes in the ferry and 7-8 hours in the bus.

In KL, we meet up with Esther and family. The first night, we spent in Dragon Inn in Pudu Raya, for RM70 per night. Mom was complaining. The next day, we checked out in the morning, and head off to Genting with Esther. We splitted up with the mothers, so me and Esther get to ride all the crazy rides.
Which was disspointing as well, coz it wasn’t really that scarry. The next day, we went to Bukit Bintang. I brought my mom to Sungei Wang, Low Yat, Times Square, and Lot 10, I can see that she enjoyed it. At night, I hooked up with Arif and a new friend Gilbert. The next day, we went to the one and only boring place, which is call Mid Valley. Never get to the Gardens, however, I hooked up with Arif and Gilbert again for a movie.

And before the journey ends, me and my mom took a bus for RM24 from KL to Johore. Very convenient. They will stop you at Johore’s bus station. You take Singapore’s bus 170. It will drop you at the custom, so chop chop, it will bring you to Kranji’s MRT station. Or it will bring you further to the Beach Road near Bugis. However, if you need public transportation, better drop by in Kranji. That is almost all about the short trip I had with my mom. If you want to know more detail, message me. hehehehe

Today I woke up,
I look to the sky,
Smile to myself,
That I am still alive.
Look at myself,
I’m one special girl,
Feeling so proud,
I winked at myself.

In this little world,
There’s nothing is perfect,
I can be fat, and I can be thin,
I choose to be strong, I choose to believe,
I can cry, but still I will smile.

Uhhh…
I’m loving it,
Nothing comes so easy,
Yeah…
It’s breaking me apart,
But, I know when I get through,
It’s a whole new day.

People around, they can be sweet,
At the same time, they can be cruel,
It’s how I will face it?
It’s how I live life?
One day I’m sad,
But I will always smile.

Uhh…
I’m loving it,
Nothing comes so easy,
Yeah…
It’s breaking me apart,
But, I know when I get through,
It’s a whole new day.

I walk out and people starting to look at me,
Some friends and family they don’t understand.
All they want is to live their life for their own,
I don’t care, I want to make myself and you all happy, together.

Uhhh…
I’m loving it,
Nothing comes so easy,
Yeah…
It’s breaking me apart,
But, I know when I get through,
It’s a whole new day.

By JoJo